The time in between the miles.

I sit here looking back at the year, and almost every memory I contain consists of him. I look back at these memories and see every emotion a person can express, I see hope, happiness, joy, sadness, disappointment, and love. Some how one person is able to make my heart feel all of these emotions for different reasons. I don’t know why but I think we as humans when we get attached to someone we love, we are able to hurt them without really thinking because we just know that no matter what they will always be around. I am not saying myself is not held accountable for this mistake, I know I could accused of the action myself.

I now am 1400 miles away from my source of emotions, trying to realize why everything happened the way it did. Why must we suffer before we are allowed happiness, why is it hard to see something we have but yet once its gone you see it clear as a crystal.

(i just smashed a bug between my fingers)

Not a minute in the day goes by when I don’t think about him, and think about our future together. Things may not have got to where they are how I expected, but there going where I expected them to be.

Tomorrow I start my senior year in high school, another scary step for our crazy future. My biggest fear of this year though, isn’t my classes or getting my homework done, its not having him physically next to me when things get tough. I know this sounds like a foolish and selfish to say. As of now i can only hope for the best of times and for the days to fly, so onto the next step of our lives we can finally reach.

Let tomorrow be just another day in our book.

Starting a little over a week ago I took a huge leap of faith, I got onto an airplane to see him. 1500 miles later I arrived at my destination without a clue what to expect from my adventure I was making. The plane landed a little rough and I prayed to god that wasn’t a sign of how the trip would be. As I walked down the long corridors and road along the tram my nerves started to get the best of me, I was going to see him for the first time in over a month. My heart started racing and I was just hoping for the best. I got off the tram and when I found his face all the worries in the world melted away from me. At that moment is when i realized everything I wanted, and I realized that I had to have him.

The week flew away from under neath us,  making me wish I would have done more to not let it escape me. Now I don’t want to be mistaken, it was by far the best week of my life. The only regret I have is that I wasn’t able to make it last longer.  The memories I have gained from this experience will last me threw distance between us, and on to the next step of our lives together.

As I got off the plane last night and made my way to my house, my appreciationfor this trip became even greater. I realized that if I would not have taken my leap of faith in him, that i would be missing out on the best thing that’s happened to me. My trust in him was not only able to triple within that week, but it was also able to reassure me that even tho we’re seperated by thousands of miles we’re together at heart.

Now that I am home my vacation is over, but our journey has just begun. Every day we wake to our noraml agenda’s we will know that, today we are one day closer to forever. And forever is just one step away.